a ring

I just realized tonight that I have not seen one of my rings in a long time. This was a birthstone ring my Grandparents bought for me when I was a year old. Whenever I would go to their house I would try it on and admire it. My grandma gave it to me few years ago when she moved and I have enjoyed wearing it ever since. I don't know why, but something in me tonight made me go look for it and I can't find it. I am sick inside and just want to cry. I have a few more places to look and things to organize, but it is not in one of my usual jewelry keeping places. I don't know how I am going to fall asleep, my mind is going crazy.